Let It All Out

Question first – What is currently stressing you out?  Think about it and really let it out in the comments, you’ll feel (a little) better!

I want to apologize for the on-again-off-again blogging schedule of late.  I also want to be honest with you guys about the fact that I’m having a hard time.  There’s not necessarily one big thing that’s bothering me, but there are a lot of little things that are adding up.  I am 80% sure that I believe in fate, and I am 110% that I believe that any seemingly negative thing you go through leads you to a better place.  But it’s still hard not to get a little freaked out by all the questions I have about the future.

Where will we have to move for Adam’s residency?  What if Adam doesn’t get a residency?  What if Adam’s chosen career means he’s away all the time and I’m lonely?  Should we have kids?  When should we have kids?  Should I get pregnant next year so if that I don’t get a job right away when we move I’ll get to be home with the kid until it’s all sorted out?  Should I wait to have kids until I’m established in my job?  How do women with full-time jobs breast feed?  How do you make an impression at your job if you excuse yourself every hour to pump and are also already 28 years old and starting out in a brand new field?  What if I can’t find a job?  What if the career path I’m on isn’t the one I want?  What do I want to do with my life?

And to be honest, the above questions are only a snapshot of all the things I’ve been worrying about.  It’s hard not to feel a little defeated when I can’t do anything proactive (at the moment) to answer those questions.  Sometimes you just have to have hope/faith/optimism and wait it out.

Sometimes – like last night – you have to eat a veggie sub and a bucket of french fries and sit on the couch watching old episodes of “Family Guy.”  But then the next morning you have to do your hair and put on your comfy-yet-sexy shoes.

So that’s what I did!

And in my comfy-yet-sexy shoes, I drove to school early and made my way through a big stack of school work.  I haven’t stopped working since, and bit by bit, I haven’t stopped feeling a little better, a little more in control.

The theme for my meals today was – late.  Breakfast was at 10, lunch was at 5, and dinner was at 9.  My late breakfast was eaten in the computer lab while I worked.

Holy frick I love reusing containers so much  I over-served Adam’s lunches for this week so that reused cheese container held a half serving he’d left behind.  In the mix was penne pasta, roasted zucchini and yellow squash, sautéed mushrooms, spinach, diced tomatoes, marinara sauce, and a drizzle of olive oil.

It was yumtastic; I’ve been a good wife this week!

Also helping me get back my happy, clinic went really well this afternoon.  We are starting to do SOAP notes and learning more about what RDs actually do helps a lot to relieve my anxiety.  Plus, I screened patient who agreed to do another round of diabetic diet education.  I can’t really say much about clinic (thanks HIPPA), but so far all of my patients have been really nice.

When we got back to campus it was time for late lunch.

Not cottage cheese*, another reusable.  *I may not have been eating a very healthy diet lately but I have been sticking to the vegan challenge at least.  And no soda for another 3 days either.

In the container were leftovers from Monday’s dinner; brown rice, roasted broccoli, and Asian Orange Tofu Bake.

Continuing the citrus theme, I had a navel orange.

And a piece of dark chocolate for dessert.

When we got out of class at 8 I drove a friend home and then hurried to make dinner.

Purple grapes.

And a Sandwich Thin with mustard, roasted garlic hummus, and 4 oz of raw tempeh.

I wasn’t expecting much but this sandwich was goo-ood.

This post took me awhile to write, but it felt good to put it all out there.  Thanks for “listening,” seriously.  I’ve got a low-sodium diet education presentation tomorrow and I’m still riding a productivity high so I’ll probably burn the midnight oil today.

Hope everyone is having a good week!

Monday Felt More Super Than Sunday

Hello, work week!  Did you watch the Super Bowl yesterday?  Were you happy with the outcome?  I will admit to not watching a single minute.  And in fact, Adam and I were a bit under the weather this weekend and did not eat or do a single thing worth mentioning!  Today I’ve managed to get almost back on track and eat some good food.

I had an orthodontist appointment early this morning; nope, I’m still not done with retainers.  My plan was to drive straight to school from there but after two parking lots worth of circling there were still no spots to be found.  Instead I drove to Wegmans and banged out a bunch of work at their comfy booths.  Plus I got a coffee for fuel.

With soy milk and 2 sugars.

My coffee was paired with breakfast from home.  A Coconut Chocolate Chip Clif Bar.

and a baggie of purple seedless grapes.

Curious about my nails?  They are pink glitter French tips!

They aren’t perfect but I did them free-hand so I’m pretty darn proud.

I did work at Wegmans, drove home, walked to school, did work at school, went to class, did work at school, got picked up by Adam, and ended up back at Wegmans for a late lunch.

Some lo mein with a piece of lemon pepper tofu and 1.5 vegan meatballs.

Veggies (mostly mushrooms and carrots with a few green beans).

This hit the spot.

Dinner took a while to cook (you can only fit two trays in our oven at a time) so we arrived home from the store we got right to work on the next meal.

My plate had 1/4 cup of sweet brown rice,

pieces of my Asian Orange Tofu Bake,

and roasted broccoli.

Everything was delicious!  The sauce on the rice and veggies is leftover tofu marinade that I cooked down quickly in the rice pot.  The tofu recipe is from way back in 2009.  I made it again to update the recipe page, still good!

After dinner I managed to drag myself to an 8pm hot yoga class.  Woot!  90 minutes of hot yoga felt so dang good!  I haven’t gone to many classes on this 30-day pass, but I’ve cherished every minute I’ve gotten.

The Whole Dang Day

It looks like this might be a cranky week!  I’ve just got to roll with it.

Last night’s popcorn turned into fries when I had to leave the house for the cell phone I forgot in the car.

Waffle fries do not make me cranky.

What does make me cranky, is the fact that the shoes I wore to the hospital on Tuesday shredded my feet and left me with big painful spots by each heel.  When I went to put on my sneakers this morning I cried out in pain, so clearly a run was not going to work.  Not only did I have to skip a much-needed workout, but I still had to drive to school at 8am so I could park.  Ugh!

I parked my car for easy access to driving to the hospital this afternoon and headed to the library to do some printing.  (I have some complaints about that too but I’ll keep them to myself!)  Then I stopped by the bookstore for a tall, soy chai latte for the walk home.

Funky mood or not, I have to admit that vanilla soy milk definitely adds a little something extra to a chai latte.  And the warmth in my belly helped me through the cold walk home.

I ate this Crispin apple while I cooked,

but that was the end of the “breakfast foods.”  Instead breakfast looked like this –

I chopped up half a large eggplant and sautéed it in a little evoo and chipotle oil, then poured in some water and covered it to steam.  Then I added in a big handful of chopped okra and ~ 1/2 cup of marinara sauce.

While a bit strange at 9am, the eggplant, okra, marinara skillet is one of my very favorite meals!

This afternoon I have statistics, then clinic, then my night class.  Since it’s a cranky day week, I think I’ll be best served by leaving class at 8pm and hopping straight into a shower and bed.  So I’m sharing my dinner now!

A baggie of grapes.

And a serving of last night’s stir fry.

Topped with dry roasted peanuts because we ran out of cashews.

Should be good.

If anything else sneaks into my mouth I’ll update tomorrow.  See you then!

What do you do to help yourself get over it when you’re having a cranky day week?

Strawberries And Cream, Squared

Adam stayed up later than planned last night which meant I stayed up later than planned last night.  At least it meant I got to catch the dog building a cave.

That is one of the very cutest things that he does!

I also ended up having a snack.  A small but amazing cookie,

and a big pile of grapes.

I may not be a med student, but I did manage to wake up with the husband this morning too.  By 6:30 am we were in our cars and I was heading to the gym.  45 minutes on the elliptical, level 6 random.

I left my car on campus so I could drive home this afternoon, and hurried home on foot for breakfast.

This bowl puts my last attempt at Berries and Cream Oatmeal to shame.

  • 1/2 cup each skim milk and water
  • ~ 1/3 cup (frozen, defrosted) strawberries
  • 1/4 cup oats
  • ~ 1 cup 1% large curd cottage cheese
  • ~ 2 Tbsp strawberry cream cheese

The strawberry cream cheese really helped put a bow on the berries and cream theme.

Have a great start of the work week!

Toasted Is Like Frosted

I made it over the hump, it’s time to wind down the week.  I know it’s pathetic but I’ve got to admit – three days of actually doing things has left me exhausted!

I did have to hurry, but I managed to leave the house to walk to campus for my two afternoon classes on time.  We learned about Diabetes Mellitus for two hours, and then had the introduction to our class on integrative medicine/nutrition.  My packed lunch was a little weak though.  A mini box of Brown Sugar Quaker Oatmeal Squares (a HLS sample).

And a huge cup of iced coffee with skim milk and English toffee syrup.

Not enough food and too much caffeine made me very shaky and cranky!  Adam picked me up for a quick grocery trip after class and I’m surprised he didn’t strangle me in the frozen aisle.  It’s possible that I stood and stared embarrassingly longingly at the hot bar.

A Coconut Chocolate Chip Clif Bar did the trick when I got home.

This new flavor is an easy cranky killer.

I also had a handful of sliced cucumber.

Cucumber slices with a sprinkle of salt are legit better that potato chips, and I say that as someone who really loves potato chips.

Dinner started with a salad course.

Romaine lettuce with chopped cucumber and yogurt Caesar dressing.

Then more salad and veggie.

Roasted green beans.

And a salad of crock pot chicken, mayo, green grapes, and toasted pecans.

Guys, toasted pecans are ridiculous good.  And I’m telling you that because I told Adam three times during dinner and he hates me.

What’s your go-to ingredient for jazzing up chicken salad?

Ingrid and I

It’s been a back-and-forth sort of day.  My travels included –

  • home to school
  • school to the WNY Food bank (in a friend’s car)
  • WNYFB to the Broadway Market (carpool)
  • Broadway Market back to school (carpool)
  • school to the post office
  • post office to Wegmans
  • Wegmans to Batavia!
  • Batavia back home
  • home back to school
  • and finally school back to home

Whew!  Way too many miles for my poor little gas tank.

For our last class of the semester, my coordinated program group took a field trip.  We donated the money we earned from the Chili Sale to the Food Bank of Western New York, so we went there today to take a tour and give them our check in person.  The tour was fascinating; a staggering amount of food (1.5 – 2 million pounds) is moved through the food bank each month.

I ate this Stonyfield yogurt drink on my first drive to school,

and these grapes during the drive to the food bank.

I also packed an Oatmeal Cranberry Pecan Cookie for everyone in the car.

Good reviews all around!

Our next stop was the Broadway Market.

It was fun to see, but I doubt I’d go back.

One of my classmates bought a fig cookie from one of the stands a shared a bite with me.

Shockingly for me, I actually found this to be too sweet.  But the sprinkles were fun.

When we got back to school I had time to print of the last of my notes for final exams before I was off on errands.  I stopped at Wegman’s at 12:30 for a 15-minute lunch.

Food, that wasn’t very good.

I had two different types of brussels sprouts and both were basically raw.  Plus the German Potato Salad (on the right) ended up being more cheese than potatoes.  I’m not saying it wasn’t tasty, but I am saying it wasn’t healthy.

And a coffee with skim milk and two sugars that I dumped down the front of my shirt while driving on the highway.

I’ve had better lunches.

I was driving out to Batavia – 50 minutes each way – for a job interview.  They won’t know for a few weeks and a lot of other (more qualified) people have applied, but nothing ventured, nothing gained.

My long drive was made exponentially more pleasant thanks the new-to-me Ingrid Michaelson CD my friend Kim burned for me.

I loved it!  The sound reminded me a lot of Regina Spektor’s 2nd album, Far.  And there were several songs that I had previously enjoyed but not recognized as Michaelson’s.  Her song “Snowfall” has been my favorite Christmas (or anytime!) song since I heard it on Bones last year. 

How gorgeous is that?

I had enough time before my final event to run home to take a quick shower and make Adam and I the world’s fluffiest smoothie.

For two – combine 1 cup skim milk, 3/4 cup h2o, 3 Tbsp malted milk powder, and 1 scoop chocolate whey protein.  Blend for far too long and you get chocolate malted air.

That big glass literally felt like nothing was in it, but at least it tasted good!  And my 150 calorie serving was surprisingly filling.  Oh the power of protein.

I was back on campus because my friend Janessa and I volunteered to run a nutrition table at the relaxation fair our college was putting on.

We were there two hours and were very pleased to see many students take an interest in our table.

I snagged a popcorn bag from a neighboring snack table,

which sparked the craving for this snack when I got home.

I’ve actually been munching my way through the bag while I typed this post!  Plus two unphotographed cookies that snuck in after I hooked up the camera.

Are you an Ingrid Michaelson fan?  How about Regina Spektor?

Better Late Than Never

Yesterday I got productive and created two fabulous, must-share recipes … and then I feel asleep (fully dressed, on top of the covers) at 8:45pm.  I’m not going to recap blog but I will share those two important recipes; better late than never!

I was well-rested this morning, but it didn’t keep me from packing food for school that was sort of strange.  Like cooked zucchini.

I ate it, cold, at 8am and loved it.

I also packed a baggie of red grapes,

and two Oatmeal Cranberry Pecan Cookies.

Those were fabulous dish#1, but I’m actually not going to share the recipe until tomorrow (it’s been a busy day).  Adam says they are the best oatmeal cookies he’s ever had and I promise they are worth check back for tomorrow.

My packed food proved inadequate for getting me through 8:00 – 2:00, and I ended up eating these Cheez-Its.

I also ate two more cookies when I got home,

plus these candies from a birthday package Adam opened (he turns 26 on Sunday!).

He also opened some birthday $ and decided that we are going to dinner at Moe’s!  I’m not going to blog dinner because I’ve got to get some school work done, but I will share yesterday’s dinner, aka fabulous dish #2.

Pineapple Upside-down Chicken, serves 4

  • 1 lb boneless, skinless chicken breasts, divided into 4 even pieces
  • 20 oz can pineapple rings canned in pineapple juice, juice drained and reserved
  • 4 slices 2% provolone cheese
  • 4 maraschino cherries
  • 2 tsp light brown sugar
  • 2 pinches salt
  • 1 tsp tamari soy sauce
  • 2-3 dashes hot sauce (I used Sriracha)
  1. Place chicken in a large, flat container and cover with pineapple juice. Cover and place in the fridge for 2-3 hours to marinate.
  2. Preheat your oven to 350 degrees Farenheit. Prepare a casserole dish with baking spray.
  3. Remove chicken from juice (return the juice to the fridge) and place into the casserole dish. Bake 30 minutes.
  4. Remove chicken from oven and top each piece with one slice of cheese and one pineapple ring. Place a cherry in the center of each ring. Sprinkle rings evenly with brown sugar and salt. Return to oven and continue to bake for 10 minutes.
  5. Meanwhile, pour juice into a small skillet over high-heat. Add tamari sauce and hot sauce.
  6. Bring to a boil and cook until reduced by half. ***Because the juice was in contact with raw poultry it is essential that you keep it at a boil for at least 5 minutes!
  7. Pour sauce evenly over cooked chicken.

I’ve never actually had pineapple upside-down cake (I know!) but the flavor profile has always sounded appealing to me. So why not apply it to dinner? We learned in food chemistry that pineapple contains Bromelain, a protease that is used commercially to tenderize meat.  As soon as I heard that I spent the rest of the class brainstorming ways to cook chicken with pineapple.  I’m glad I did too, because Adam and I both loved this recipe!  The chicken was very tender and there was a good balance of flavors.  The sauce was scrumptious, but be sure to remember to boil it for at least 5 minutes.

Are you a pineapple upside-down cake fan?

I Was Told There’d Be Book Club

Book club was a success!  And Adam got off of his shift early and got to spend the afternoon with me, so it was a great day all-around.

I got up early to do some final cleaning (when people come over I like to pretend that we’re not slobs) and snacked on a bag of popcorn and a slice of 2% provolone while I worked.

I also did some major 2-for-me-and-1-for-the-bowl-ing while I prepped the fruit salad.

At 10 my friends arrived and we feasted.

We may not have really talked about the book (I Was Told There’d Be Cake) but at least we had some good eats!

My plate had potatoes,

fruit salad,

cheesy baked eggs,

and a crepe (so cool!) with Biscoff spread on the inside.

We also made hibiscus mimosas.

It was all great fun.  No people pictures though because we suck at remembering to take them.  I always have my camera with me (duh) so I need to do a better job at snapping candids.

We book clubbed until after 3pm and then my cultural meal pattern group and I baked some Irish soda bread to bring to our presentation tomorrow.  By the time they left I was starving again and my study motivation was seriously waning.  But I have an important cumulative exam – spanning two semesters and material from 2 courses – tomorrow.  What to do, what to do?

Somehow the husband and I decided that the solution was to go out to dinner and study at the table while other people prepared our food!

We went to an all-you-can-eat sushi spot that has a longish wait between courses and it was actually perfect.  I’m not prepared for tomorrow by any means, but I got a lot more done than I would have at home.

I also ate a lot.  I just plain don’t have time to break the pictures down, but here’s a shot of what I ate.

Wow!  Highlights included edamame, tamago (sweet egg) sushi, and tempura zucchini.

And we stopped at Wegmans for a candy cane for dessert.

Sweet dreams!