I am back, officially! I promised some reflecting in the last post, as to why I was being such a naughty blogger –
I am freaking out a bit. About going back to school, about moving, about not having any idea what I want to do with the rest of my life. About only taking one class next semester, about that class being too hard for me. About quiting teaching. About going back to teaching. The list goes on, and there are a lot of contradictions.
It does not help that I am beyond exhausted, I don’t sleep well anyways and our new neighborhood is astonishingly noisy. In the interest of full disclosure, I will also mention that I am becoming very depressed about my foot. I’ve mentioned that I had plantars worts on my left foot (I am apparently with out an immune system!) and now instead of 3 I have 5. And I don’t have a doctor’s appointment for another month. And my foot hurts like heck and I’m afraid it will effect my marathon training.
From these reflections, I realized that I’ve been doing some self-sabotaging. I’ve been eating crappy food, not working out, not studying. I had planned on signing up for a week yoga pass (I have to do it now because once school starts my class is all at night) when I realized that I was dreading going. That is not the feeling I want to have, towards yoga of all things. I decided I will not do more than 5-10minutes of strength training a day until class starts, and let myself focus on volunteering and chemistry review. I’ve had a lot of big changes in the last month, I need to allow myself to deal.
Today, I ate an Orange Cranberry Gnu Bar sample on my walk to volunteering.

Probably the best flavor I’ve tried so far.
For lunch I used my volunteer voucher to get a cup of vegetarian chili, which I topped with cheddar cheese and jalopenos.

I love veggie chili so much, I have a list of chili recipes I am excited to make this winter. This was beyond tasty for cafeteria food, but left my mouth pretty spicy so I ate half a sample bag of Sahale Snacks Soledad Almonds Nut Blend.

This was a much more pleasant flavor to spend the afternoon with 🙂
After volunteering I walked back to a coffee shop in my area and set up shop for studying. As mentioned, I am taking one class this semester (Gen. Chem. I with a lab). To prepare I’ve been working on Chemistry for Dummies. I studied from 2:15 – 5:45 and while I worked I had an iced coffee – 1sugar, splash of cream – and the rest of my nuts.

The bag had 2servings, 260calories in total, and was just the right amount of munching to keep me focused.
Tonight I have some more to-do’s to check off (including putting away the laundry I did more than 24hours ago!) and I have a 10pm bedtime goal. See ya for dinner!
What have you been freaking out about lately?





