I’m going to be honest from the start: this is a fairly whiney post.  In fact, I’ve got a pretty fun recipe post coming this evening (hopefully!) so you may want to just wait.  If you’re still here, I’ll tell you that I’ve been in a rotten mood for the past 24 hours.  It’s been a very frustrating day, not without a few high points though.

I’ll be honest; yesterday afternoon when we went to the Co-op what I really wanted was nachos.  I talked myself out of them in the interest of attempting to actually be healthy this summer, but it was a big mental battle.  <– I shared the play by plays with the husband too, fun for him.  So when I was hungry within 5 minutes of arriving at work yesterday (the hot bar wasn’t very good) I had some regret about my choice.  It doesn’t help that my workplace serves some amazing looking nachos that make me green with envy every time I serve them.

Anyway, I was at work getting hungrier and hungrier, when we had a terrible string of customers that made me question humanity.  Sidenote:  to the woman who requested a private room for a birthday party, brought in her own cake for me to serve, received amazing service, and then tipped me $20 on a $245 bill – I hope someone punches you in the face.  I’m thinking about doing a mini-post on tipping actually, would anyone be interested in that?

As my mood got worse and worse, I knew nachos were the answer.  When I got cut 20 minutes early (ie before the kitchen was closed) I knew it was a sign from the cheese gods.  Nachos.

I realize that bad lighting / the to-go container / the fact that these had to sit and wait for me to finish work makes these look less appetizing than they could, but let me assure you these were a high point of the day!

The nachos were ridiculous good.  Housemade chips with poblano peppers, mango salsa, and smoked gouda?  Heck yes!

I brought the nachos home to share with the husband but I ended up housing 80% of them myself.  Unfortunately, and unsurprisingly, consuming that much smoked gouda made me sick to my stomach.  Totally worth it, but this combined with my bad mood did keep me up past 3am.  When I did finally get in bed the husband tells me that I thrashed about and made noise all night.

I didn’t get out of bed until 10am this morning and after sending a few e-mails I realized that I was a) still in a terrible mood, and b) still exhausted.  Back to bed I went.

I got up around 3 with the goal of cashing in on free donut day at Dunkin, and getting in my 5miler.  I ordered a small iced coffee with skim milk,

and got a free Boston Cream donut out of the deal.

Goal #1, check.

Goal #2 = massive fail.  Probably in part because I fueled for the gym with a freaking donut.  Probably also in part because my sleep schedule is that of a college student or a crazy person and I’m in fact a 25-year-old sane person.  I got to the gym, suited up, bought a Gatorade, then got on the treadmill and died.  I was too tired to physically make myself run in the proper form.  I couldnt’ even walk at a pace about 3.2 miles per hour.  It was ridiculous.

I’m so mad at myself!  I realized from the start that I might not be able to actually do the half (especially when my knee started hurting) but I didn’t realize that it would have anything to do with being lazy with my training plan.  What has my problem been the last few weeks?!  As I yelled at myself I did at least come to two realizations –

1. I need to do better at the grocery store so that there aren’t so many mornings where there’s nothing healthy in the house for me to eat.  Even without sleep, my gym trip would have gone better if I was properly fueled.
2. I have to get serious about sleeping like an adult.  When Adam’s working at the hospital our hours will be crazy and there’s nothing I can do about it, but right now I have control over the situation.  I don’t get out of work that late, if I came home and went to bed it’d be all good.  But instead I come home and get sucked into the computer/tv and am tired and frustrated all the next day; not good!

What’s a bad decision you’ve made lately?  What can you do to help yourself in the future?